I almost made this something it shouldn't be.

But you know what? I want to watch this happen for awhile, to see if it actually will.

Them ice boots are coming back on until the sun shines.

Platonic friends

You've kept me going, for the past two and a half years.

And most of the time, I'm conversing with a faceless, bodyless idea of you.

I wonder if thats how you know for sure.

Back on my feet

Those we the yuckiest couple weeks ever!

But

I'm back and feeling divine!

I'm getting things done that I should be, I'm working really hard to get all my ducks in a row to be a nanny. I called most of my references today, let them know what was going on and 4 out of 6 are really happy with what I'm doing! I haven't been able to speak to the other 2 yet. I'm really excited about this. Its been awhile, but I must be confident! I love children, I babysat ALOT for a long time. I can do this. And I would like doing it. And I'll probably get better at cooking haha. And All my children's books will be of more use.

I'm really excited. I think I'm getting past some things. I'm so excited to be doing something like this for myself. Something I wanted to do, and just never thought as an option.

Nanny Amy

Hahahahahahahaha. Okay, I finished my craigslist post, so now its back to Lost. And then tomorrow to the doctor's! To the library! To the goddamn grocery store and laundromat!

Roar

Confuckyoulations

And now that its all over, I just don't care anymore.

I feel really angry.

I feel really hurt.

But I feel really free.

Thank you, and good night.

(this title is a silence)

It feels like you invited me over, but forgot that we'd be trying to play with something that was dead.

And now we're awkwardly sitting in the same room, our backs turned.

Freak out in a moonage daydream, oh yeah

I'm going to:

-watch Rome
-drink obnoxious amounts of liquids
-listen to alot of Lily Allen (yeah, whatever!)
-get real silly on t3s

And thats all I need.

Press your space face close to mine, love

This is a picture of my mom in Vancouver. I miss her alot, she's there working. Hopefully she'll come home soon.

I don't know how I feel about this Todd person. He texts me all the time, he never gets angry with me, he never wants to make me angry, he does all these things for me. But somehow I just don't think he'd fit properly in my life. Goddamn. He's very conservative, as wheird as that sounds and I fear another Zoran situation.

I am living a double life.